The last thing i want is to be sick again. I was sick on the first day of school. and i went to my doctor. who gave me the usual look and those comforting words. 'how are you feeling? its normal for everyone to be sick once in a while. dont worry, you're be fine'. and thats the 3rd time i saw him within a short span of 2 months. tts normal? maybe dying is too normal too. i have no luck with school anyhow. i feel feverish now. again. simple as that. and i will not visit that same doctor even if i die a horrible death in the loo.

Wake up. School has drained all my time and energy. i can no longer laugh loudly cuz' i have no more voice to do that. anger. i have no time to paint my lovely nails. i dont even have time to do a proper bath. and i dont bother to put on any perfume anymore. my fire and passion for life has died. and i channeled all my anger to an eating binge. mainly meat. i ate half a spring chicken yest and i was still having hunger pangs. lunch was $11.20 worth of food from old chang kee today. the guys behind me in forensics lecture were gasping away. it doesnt make any sense anymore. someone stab me.